Toxic

You’re toxic, and I refuse to let you take me down with you any longer. I have tried so hard to overlook all of your flaws, and to forget all of the times you made me cry, but I can’t do it anymore. I have to move on with my life, and the more I think about it, the more I believe that you are not meant to be a part of it. It breaks my heart, but I’m at a point in my life where I need to do what is best for me. I have given you so many chances, and I foolishly hope that you have changed, but you never have. You never will.
I don’t want to spend my adult life cut off from my father, but at this point I don’t know what else to do. A girl can only handle so much disappointing, and it hurts that much more when it’s family.
So here I am, out in the real world, on my own. Now I just have to convince myself that lonely is better than toxic, that cutting myself off from the only family I’ve ever known is better than the disappointment that goes along with it.

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2 thoughts on “Toxic

  1. I love your piece. It’s emotional, its thought provoking, and its the reality of so many people around the world. I hope its not a true story, but if it is it means you have finally taken the power back from the forces of guilt, shame and condemnation.

    You also inspired me to write!!!!! I have been trying to find a way to get back to writing and here, I finally have no excuse.

    Kudos ‘Saige’s Stories’ !!!

    Like

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